Monday, January 30, 2012

Pins and Needles No More

Hola friends. As most of you know, I received my letter from The University of Oklahoma Health Sciences Center, letting me know I have been accepted into their physician assistant program. Holy Moly Guacamole. My interview went great but as time passed, I kept rethinking answers and self doubt had started to set in. One of my aunts is a psychologist and she had me doing visualization exercises. "Visualize the letter in the mail box....visualize you opening the envelope....feel your emotions and harness your nervous energy....visualize you reading that you have been accepted." To be honest, I had visualized both answers....congrats and REJECTED!!! I tried to run through emotions of both outcomes and as of Saturday morning, felt pretty good about either outcome. Well, let me tell you what. That mumbo jumbo crap flew completely out the window when I got my hot little hands on that letter. We had taken Holland to ballet and stopped for donuts and coffee. Our mail runs super early at the new house (praise the Lord because we got our mail at our old house at 4pm....could you imagine the angst?) and as we were pulling up I told Chris to stop and get the mail. I didn't REALLY think we would get letters this fast but I had been checking the mail like clock work. I knew we had received it when Chris grabbed the mail and gave a strange look over his shoulder. He got in the car and handed it over. Peace out serenity. Peace out visualizations. My hand began to shake and the tears were on the verge. Chris lovingly offered to open it. Oh hell no. I opened it and saw there was two pages. Two pages.....two pages is good right? Scan scan scan (I visualized big bold letters saying CONGRATULATIONS) and gave up and started at the top:

Ms Robertson:
We are pleased to inform you that you have been admitted....

Stop reading and start screaming. The kids were terrified until we explained Mommy was happy. I seriously had a permagrin for the entire day. The two other girls I know were accepted as well so that makes it even more fun!

I feel a little lighter in my step and able to calm down and relax. I hadn't realized how much the anxiety had been affecting me until it was gone. Hip hip! I am terrified of how hard it will be and how much work it will take but it feels good to be able TO worry about those things! I took I gigantic leap of faith in August of 2010 and I am so lucky that God has essentially paved my path. There's been a few bumps and cracks but all in all, smooth travels. I can't thank you all enough for your constant encouragement and support. I'm so looking forward to this journey ahead and can't wait to take you all with me!

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